Wednesday, October 31, 2012

How Much Can Change On So Little a Plot of Land?

How much can change on so little a plot of land?
Where my grandparents called home
My childhood lingers in that place’s memory
Waiting for me

Where my Grandparents called home
They lived there and died there
Haunting me
Their ghosts I welcome as I miss them so

They lived there and died there
They died feet away separated by long years
Granny visits in dreams and Pops stays in memories
I am their smiling continuation

They died feet away separated by long years
I have seen death’s ugly truth in loved one’s faces
I hold their smiles in my smiles and their life in mine
This is the legacy of the Welch family line

I have seen death’s ugly truth in loved one’s faces
Clouds parted, momma said, to let Pops in
I was a boy when I first learned my part in the family
I came to know many scars from death through the years

Clouds parted, momma said, to let Pops in
When Granny died I carried her coffin looking at parting clouds
I was a man then, wearing the pain of death’s too often visit
How much can change on so little a plot of land?

Saturday, October 27, 2012

What's It Worth?


Each person is a possibility
A story waiting to be told
We are all a light bulb
Waiting to burn bold
To shine back that brilliant darkness
That would tempt us to sleep
We are instead so much more
Than counting sheep
We are the story the gods share with each other
The fire they hunger to know once more
We are the second coming and golden chance
Remember this when those hateful eyes fix on you
When you’re sad and even blue
Remember this
This story is the story of us, and the story of you
Seven billion or so call this wobbly place home
Seven billion chances at world peace and harmony
Seven billion chances to get it right
Imagine if we put down the weapon and stopped the fight
What could be, what would be, what even
Should be
If instead of spewing hate and damnation
We together build one giant human nation
Where instead of saying hate you
We said something bigger
Love you
Something better
Have faith in you
Something bolder
This could be our story
Should be our story
It could even be our biggest glory
To live together, stewards of the earth
From us all, we to love give birth
What’s it worth?

Friday, October 26, 2012

Into the Orange Ember City Lights


Into the Orange Ember Lights

I can’t sleep
No matter how many sheep
My heart is a raw nerve
With each thrumming beat
I want to go outside
Take my feet
Hit the street
I want to run away
Sink into the nothingness
I want to melt into those orange ember city lights
I want to grow wings
Take flight
I want to run away
Pain be gone
Turn to old news
Yesterday lose your sway
I want to feel free
Be free
But I’m a mime in a box
My screams can’t even hit the ceiling
My paper thin love gone from all the peeling
I’m beating at the walls but no one is coming
My heart is in a free fall
I’m hurting and aching
My soul plummeting
Loved her but was mistaken
I guess that’s so, I don’t know
I’m just hurting
She’s probably smiling
As this cut in my heart keeps on squirting
And all this pain keeps on piling
To the midnight street I take my beat
With two pairs of shoes to hide my feet
I the secret path seek
Escaping into the nothing
Melting into the orange ember lights
In the city façade
I whisper my midnight plights

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Into Hades


The old man rowed the boat with a bone weary persistence, but hadn’t said a word. The traveler had ridden in the boat for what felt to be ages already, and grew tired of the ceaseless, repetitive sounds of silence. The traveler felt emboldened by his boredom, and with the fire for companionship, he persisted once more.
“Is it as bad as they say?” the young traveler asked the boatman.
The boatman rowed for answer.
The traveler looked about, his neck tucked in tight to the thick wool cloak he wore about him, the cold threatening to steal the very life from him. He peered as far as the eye could see, but the night like sky of the deep cavern was thick and unyielding. Worse, there was a heavy fog all about them, and the stench of something rotten was growing stronger. He leaned over and gazed at the water. It was no better.
“How deep does the water go?” the traveler asked.
The boatman turned his head, his neck creaking like an old door that hadn’t been opened in many years. His face came into full view of the traveler, an unlikely sight to anyone living for a long and countless many years. The traveler regretted his nervous queries looking into that pale corpse ugly face, lips pulled back exposing full teeth, eyes hollowed out showing dark endless rings about twin orbs of eyes with no hint of pupils end and eye’s beginning.
The traveler looked down into the boat. He bit his lips and willed himself to say no more. The sound of water sloshed about the tiny vessel, the vice like grip of their desperate situation choked in on him. He felt suddenly overcome with claustrophobia, wishing he could leave the boat, wishing he could go back, wishing this evil fate had found another.
And then a new sound came to his ears, an ugly sound, like dry leaves in late October, rustling about on cobblestone just before being smashed under heavy feet. It was the dry sandy sound of the boatman laughing, “Have no wish for answers do you?”
The traveler didn’t want to raise his head, but was more terrified of refusing the lord of the boat. He looked up, and without looking square on, fearful of being sucked into the eternal gaze of the boatman, he looked away just slightly. Then he asked, “How do you mean?”
“All these questions, and yet you won’t even look the one who has your answers in the eye,” the boatman said. He shifted his gaze down toward the travelers hands, “Rub them together anymore and you’ll catch yourself afire.”
The traveler looked at his hands and realized how red they’d become. He pushed them away from each other and forced them to his sides. He licked his lips a few times and felt the sticky dry reality of his fear, and then he spoke, “Is it as bad as they say?”
“Worse,” said the boatman, turning to look into whatever ugly thing lay before them. “They say beyond my border there are lands of fire that never cease, and mountains of ice that never melt. They say there are masters worse than the ancient demons and dogs of unending—unyielding—rage and appetite. And cities with no law but murder, and chaos.”
The traveler licked his lips again.
“But that isn’t what you really wish to know is it?” the boatman asked.
“No,” the traveler said.
“You want to know if it’s possible, what you do, if it’s e’er been done?”
“Aye,” the traveler said. “Has it, sir?”
“Ne’er on my watch. Fools have tried, but none have come back. Not from there. They say a man foolish enough to enter is damned from birth, cursed with the headstrong pride of ill belief and hope. Wise men know their limits, know their bounds.”
The traveler gazed into the ugly darkness beyond their one lone torch. A soft sound came upon an unsure breeze, at first it sounded like a song, but as they grew closer the sound grew into an ugly distinct thing. “What is that?”
The boatman’s laugh came back over the boat like a low cloud just before a storm. Then he said, in a hushed whisper, “That is the land of the dead ye hear boy, the howls of the damned, the forgotten, the desperate fools who paid no heed in life. That is the sound of your own future.”

A Journey to Starting Over

He is the tossing and turning, trying to sleep, 
The blankets kicked 
The pillows pulled tight, 
The sweat upon the brow 
The hollow sound of an empty heartbeat

He is the laughing mask,
The smiling face with frowning eyes
The well practiced joke never shared

He is the guy watching TV alone,
The checking of the blinking command of every txt message,
The hungry hope for contact
The deathly silence of an empty apartment

He is the table with one empty chair seldom used except by the mail,
The meal for two eaten only by one,
The refrigerator filled with leftovers destined to be tossed out
The unwanted last bites of an otherwise good dinner
The sour smell of a greasy meal still thick in the air

He is the buzzing of the bathroom light,
The sound of scrubbing teeth, and shower water running
The quiet planning of the day ahead
The face in the mirror once recognized, now looking back, a stranger
The smiling face with frowning eyes

He is the nice guy everyone likes but no one really knows
The easy going friendly one, active and talking and yet still and silent,
The voice of hunger,
The face of thirst,
The hand outstretched,
The broken seat in the crowded room,

He is the conversation soon forgotten,
The vanishing puff of breath,
The soon to fade memory
The ghost in waiting
The haunting as he has been haunted

He is the only friend to loneliness
The only one to understand desolation
The giver of tears
The embracer of sorrow
The endless night wearing a mask of calm
The abandoned lover
The forgotten friend

He is the face of all those who were two but now are only one
The body of all those who share in the communion of exile
The slow drip of a leaky faucet
The long silence when all the water has ran out
The face of being left behind

He is the loneliness and the loneliness was me
The one I had to be in order to see
The guy I had to pass through
The ugly body of pain
The painful path
The rainy part of a journey to starting over