Friday, December 7, 2012
An Excerpt of a Short Story: Working Title: Clock Tower Photograph (A very Rough Draft)
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
I Am Made of a Trillion Dreams
Monday, November 12, 2012
She Is My Sister the Photographer
With a thousand cameras she took only one picture
She danced with the glimmering beams of light from the moon
And talked politics and love and laughter with a moose head
She took only one picture, the picture of her life
She danced with the glimmering beams of light from the moon
She writes sonnets in pictures of an ocean I’ve never seen
She took only one picture, the picture of her life
Only in her photographs have I seen her world
She writes sonnets in pictures of an ocean I’ve never seen
She is eyes always watching, life always hungry
With a thousand cameras she has shown me her only picture
The one still life black and white colorful story
She is eyes always watching, life always hungry
Dancing with pizza in one hand and camera not up to task
She is the freezing force of holding moments captive in time
She is the frame waiting for the right photograph to accent
Dancing with pizza in one hand and camera not up to task
She is the laughing jovial face behind the lens
She is the right shade the picture calls to be painted in
She is the raw moment happening all around us
She is the laughing jovial face behind the lens
Ever watching, finger at the trigger, photo waiting to happen
She is the keeper of the eternal now
With a thousand cameras she took only one picture
Friday, November 2, 2012
Just One Feather On My Pillow
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
How Much Can Change On So Little a Plot of Land?
Where my grandparents called home
Waiting for me
Where my Grandparents called home
They lived there and died there
Haunting me
Their ghosts I welcome as I miss them so
They lived there and died there
They died feet away separated by long years
Granny visits in dreams and Pops stays in memories
I am their smiling continuation
They died feet away separated by long years
I have seen death’s ugly truth in loved one’s faces
I hold their smiles in my smiles and their life in mine
This is the legacy of the Welch family line
I have seen death’s ugly truth in loved one’s faces
Clouds parted, momma said, to let Pops in
I was a boy when I first learned my part in the family
I came to know many scars from death through the years
Clouds parted, momma said, to let Pops in
When Granny died I carried her coffin looking at parting clouds
I was a man then, wearing the pain of death’s too often visit
How much can change on so little a plot of land?
Saturday, October 27, 2012
What's It Worth?
Friday, October 26, 2012
Into the Orange Ember City Lights
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Into Hades
A Journey to Starting Over
The blankets kicked
The pillows pulled tight,
The sweat upon the brow
The hollow sound of an empty heartbeat
He is the laughing mask,
The smiling face with frowning eyes
He is the guy watching TV alone,
The checking of the blinking command of every txt message,
The hungry hope for contact
The deathly silence of an empty apartment
He is the table with one empty chair seldom used except by the mail,
The meal for two eaten only by one,
The refrigerator filled with leftovers destined to be tossed out
The unwanted last bites of an otherwise good dinner
The sour smell of a greasy meal still thick in the air
He is the buzzing of the bathroom light,
The sound of scrubbing teeth, and shower water running
The quiet planning of the day ahead
The face in the mirror once recognized, now looking back, a stranger
The smiling face with frowning eyes
He is the nice guy everyone likes but no one really knows
The easy going friendly one, active and talking and yet still and silent,
The voice of hunger,
The face of thirst,
The hand outstretched,
The broken seat in the crowded room,
He is the conversation soon forgotten,
The vanishing puff of breath,
The soon to fade memory
The ghost in waiting
The haunting as he has been haunted
He is the only friend to loneliness
The only one to understand desolation
The giver of tears
The embracer of sorrow
The endless night wearing a mask of calm
The abandoned lover
The forgotten friend
He is the face of all those who were two but now are only one
The body of all those who share in the communion of exile
The slow drip of a leaky faucet
The long silence when all the water has ran out
The face of being left behind
He is the loneliness and the loneliness was me
The one I had to be in order to see
The guy I had to pass through
The ugly body of pain
The painful path
The rainy part of a journey to starting over
Saturday, September 15, 2012
The Heart is a House Ever Changing
The heart is a house we are always building and tearing down, it has so many halls and rooms and libraries of all we have in memory and experience, and in some dark parts, we hold within our hearts the ugly shade of a lonely tomb.
I take the hammer and crowbar into the room marked with an "E" and close the door silent behind me.
I pause to consider the many things that have been felt, experienced, housed and done in this one grand room. Most of my work, she has already done for me.
To the untouched wall I begin to tear, to rip, to let it all fall. The undoing of a room, the moving forward, cleaning up, taking the books out to storage, the bed marked love, sagging in the middle, stained with tears unused for so long, to the trash pile where now it truly belong.
Soon the room will be empty, clean, clear and someone else will reside here. I take the "E" from off the door, consider it a while, but no more.
The heart is a house ever changing...
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Dealing with a Loss
What good is a life without a little pain?
Or sunny days without some rain?
I just heard the news you were gone, passed away, slipped into the beyond.
I'm hurt, hurting, lost, sad
Too many funerals for someone my age, too many tombstones in my life, their weight is such a damning painful strife
I'll come visit you soon, I'm so sorry you slipped away, like everyone else who has ever lost someone, just one more day
I'd have gotten that letter in the mail, written, sent, done instead of wasted my only chance to tell you, you were family despite the difference of our blood
We shared so many memories, halloweens as a boy with the homemade candy, the badge from your late husband you passed on to me, the night you were robbed and i learned what a community was, each memory a poem to your life and a sorry to see you go
Rest in peace is such a heavy thing to say, it's not enough really, it's so small, but what is there left? In the end, the dark shade will take us all, in the end, there is only death
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
These Are Our Faces
These are our faces
Our places
Our time
And our memories
These are our
Remember mes.
Do not let us fade
Or turn to shade
Do not let us turn to dust
Or rot
Or rust
But keep us close
Your guiding ghost
Your guardsmen at the post
Do not forget
To forgive
Our lust for life
Our pain
And our strife
We are your fathers proud
And mothers glad
Happy reminders
Of times good
And bad
We are your kinsmen many
And clan few
We are the ones who
Made you
And through our living
Sang a song
Of your life coming along
We are the distant past
And your boats sturdy mast
Guiding you on to be us
To generations not yet come
Their strength
Mighty and strong
Until the job is done
Monday, September 10, 2012
Neither Heaven nor Hell
Sunday, September 9, 2012
The Cowboy
He just rides that horse
Through winter snow, and summer rain
He rides in dust and flood
The wild of the west thick in his blood
He takes his sorrow on the chin and rides out time and again
Strength in his will
Power in his gun
Both his flesh and soul are bleached by the endless desert sun
Pale white like the ghost he is
Riding through every high and low dusty ridge
Six shooter by his side
All yonder cowboy knows
Is to ride that horse, to ride and ride
The cowboy knows no pain
Though his soul is a sad and sorrowful stain
His eyes tell truth where his silence would lie
He just knows to ride and ride until the day he die
The Graveyard in My Soul
What is Love?
I know not, I know not
I know only the pain it has brought
And the joy
In the moments between the pain
The joy
The happy laughter
And in love making
The sweetest song of bedroom sighs
I have tasted deep this thing called love
And have felt its hellish flame
Whether it be a heaven thing
Or a nightmare wasteland
I know not, I…I simply know not
I have loved
I have
But it has been taken from me
In her parting my company
And now my cracked heart
The bleeding is starting
And some gentle hand I long for
Soothe me
Heal me
With some kinder Love’s healing salve
Won’t you?
Where are you?
Come my dear and love me
Back to life
Take from me
This jagged pain, this loveless knife
Ran deep in between my ribs, piercing my heart
Oh dear heavens ever watchful
And blistering hell, always hungry
Now, the blood, the bleeding out,
My life was only at the start
And from me, she as cold as cold can be, has taken
And from one love to another love, and onward still, I must depart
I am not my pain
I am more
I am love waiting
On some distant shore
Waiting for new love
Waiting for love and more
Unending Night of Cold and Loneliness
This Rainy Evening
This Too Shall Pass
Those first few drops of rain so inconsequential, the whispering sound of their community falling and gathering all around
Nor does the water ever seem too high or strong or dangerous
Until it is
Each drop piling high, singing the creek out behind the house into a rage
Until finally the water could hold back no more and all its chocolate milk fury came at us with a thunder and command befitting the gods of long before
We were overcome
And the day I watched my car get filled mere feet beyond my reach
And above all, the day my uncle, homeless and undesired, found dead in a Colorado street.
Momma wailed, not cried, and the water no matter how loud couldn't drown her out
First she thought she was losing the house and then she found out she had lost her brother
Was there no good left to God?
And all the while I thought of Bay Saint Louis down in Mississippi where I had dug just such valuables out of strangers homes
Mad Lady Katrina had a higher reach than any shelf or even roof
But I stacked my stuff too and let my family hold to their belief
The water was all around, there seemed no hope, out back a river, out front a river, all around the rain gathered their community and sang deaths ugly tune
Dad and I ventured out, we had only one chance, “how high is the water papa?”, old man Cash once sang
Too damn high
Dad gave me an ax and a look I'll never forget
We started chopping down the fence he had built some summers ago, and somewhere between the swings, I had become a man to my father and an equal
And somewhere between the swings, I asked God why and even prayed, and all the while I thought of what I'd done to help others
When Katrina tried our nation, and found us wanting, hadn't I gone? Hadn't I done something more than most?
We seldom remember when the storm comes and seldom see it's recline but no truer joy had I felt than when the creek of my childhood had lost its bite
And left me with its gritty hard lesson
There will always be rain and floods but we can weather any storm if we pick up the ax
And no better boat than the family that rows together